Day 58

Maybe I should change the name of this blog to "Starting to get fit at 30" instead! Pretty sure I won't be fit in 58 days! :-) I have to admit, I am really excited. I am joining WW tomorrow night. Something I never thought I would do, after discovering THM in the summer of 2013, but something has changed this time around, and it's just not working like it did before. I think I am more lax about it, and eating more desserts and higher calorie items or something. I'm fat because I don't know how to stop eating, and a lifestyle like THM, in a way, feeds my obsession to eat. Yeah! I don't have to count anything! I can have 6 cheesecake chocolate chip cookies and be "on plan" as long as I have it after an S dinner, so I will make cheeseburger pie and eat to my hearts delight! I KNOW that is not what Serene and Pearl mean when they wrote the book, but for someone who struggles with portion control, this diet doesn't work. I just wish they said in the book, "You can have Cheeseburger Pie, but a serving size is 1/8 of the pan" or "Cut your THM brownies into 16 pieces, and enjoy 1 piece after an S meal." I didn't get fat because I knew what a portion size is....lets be honest. All I know is, I got down to my lowest since having children on WW, and I'm ready to do it again. I am going to try to stay with THM's way of eating, most of the time, because I really do love how it makes me feel when I am eating that way. I do feel like it makes me feel a little less pressure though, if I'm out and about and need to have something "off THM plan", I can just count the points and still be doing good. I'm not going to lie...I'm excited to eat a Subway sub with Baked Lays potato chips! ;-) Tomorrow night is my first meeting, so that is the weight I will have as my starting weight. I may post it on here....and I may not. It's so embarrassing quite honestly, so I'm not sure what I will do yet. I'm looking forward to having the accountability of weighing in each week, and having the support of friends at the meetings. I've been there on and off for 8 years now, so I pretty much know everyone! :-)
  Well that's about it. Maybe I will post tomorrow night after the meeting, but if not, I will try to post Friday after my first day back on WW. Skinny Jessica....I'm coming for you! ;-)