Day 50

Oh my belly is so happy right now haha....I love Thursday nights when I can come home after WW and FEAST on whatever I want after eating so little all day! To say I go crazy would be an understatement! :-)
   On to my weigh in....I was down 7.8 pounds! Now...that isn't all weight! Last Thursday I wore my boots, and a hoodie on the scale, and also ate right before I went to the meeting, so that explains some of those pounds for sure! I'm still happy though, because I'm hoping 3-4 of those pounds were actually worked for. :-) I'm still not at a place that I'm real excited yet, cause I'm still not to the lowest number I've once hit since Lanie was born, believe it or not. I got to 220 after a Fuel Cycle before the holidays, and so I still have 11 pounds before I will get super duper excited! On I go to week 2!

Starting weight - 238.2
Current weight - 230.4
Loss this week - 7.8
Total loss - 7.8

Day 51

Sorry I've been MIA. Sunday my husband surprised me, got a babysitter and took me out to eat for Valentine's Day! So sweet! Needless to say, we go out to eat together MAYBE once a year, so WW wasn't really on my mind and I went a little crazy haha! Probably ate my weeklies for the next 2 months! ;-) Got back on plan on Monday, and have been doing good since then, but I hope that one night doesn't hurt me too much! Tomorrow is my first weigh in, and like always I'm nervous about it! Hopefully I will be down more than just "my boots and my hoodie" ;-) I will check in tomorrow when I get home!

Day 55

Another day complete and I stayed on plan. It's really funny going back to points...such a different mindset than THM. I'm realizing that I was probably eating like 150 points a day on THM! When I measured my small tad of butter for 2 points today, I thought back to how much butter I put in my eggs when I used to make them, and wow....haha...I probably had 6-8 points worth just of butter! It is going to be REALLY hard, almost impossible, to stick with THM while counting points because of that. I'm trying my best though. Still using my joseph's wraps instead of bread, eating greek yogurt, etc. Did buy some 2 point Fiber One Mint Brownies today that are freaking amazing...not gonna lie. ;-) Tomorrow will be challenging because of church and then choir practice....I eat breakfast at 7:30 then am not home until 2pm. I will bring a snack for sure or else when I finally get home, I will eat everything in sight. I don't know if Ben will want to go out to eat with the kids tomorrow night or not, as sometimes we will do that on Saturday or Sunday night. Good thing is I only used 2 of my 49 weekly points so far, so I should be ok!
    I was diagnosed with a bad sinus infection yesterday and am on antibiotics, so hopefully by Monday I will be feeling 100% again and ready to start working out. I'm so anxious to start running again! It just stinks that I literally lost 3 weeks of working out since I've been so sick. Oh well...looking ahead and not behind! I will hit the ground running this week and make up for it! Hope you had a nice Valentine's day!

Day 56

Day one of WW complete! I have to admit, it was very weird to count points again, but I strangely loved it. It was freeing to know I could eat whatever I wanted, as long as it was within my points. Most of my day was THM food, but I did have some chocolate covered almonds that were amazing, and it was so nice to not feel guilty about eating them because they weren't "on plan." I get 39 points a day...it sounds like so much, but funny enough, they went by fast! I guess one of the many things that THM taught me was not to use fat free everything, so your points go pretty fast when you are using real butter, instead of spray butter for instance. If i'm going to follow THM, along with WW, the points will go fast, so I need to realize that and plan accordingly, even if that means eating some non THM foods.
    So, I debated sharing my weight on here or not, but ya know what? It is what it is. I don't care if people know what I weigh, and it will help me to be able to post my weight each week. Just try not to judge...haha....

2-12-15
Starting weight - 238.2 :-/

In my defense haha I did weigh after a full day of eating, and wore my boots and a hoodie on the scale. ;-) Hoping I will be down 5-6 next week....we will see!

Day 58

Maybe I should change the name of this blog to "Starting to get fit at 30" instead! Pretty sure I won't be fit in 58 days! :-) I have to admit, I am really excited. I am joining WW tomorrow night. Something I never thought I would do, after discovering THM in the summer of 2013, but something has changed this time around, and it's just not working like it did before. I think I am more lax about it, and eating more desserts and higher calorie items or something. I'm fat because I don't know how to stop eating, and a lifestyle like THM, in a way, feeds my obsession to eat. Yeah! I don't have to count anything! I can have 6 cheesecake chocolate chip cookies and be "on plan" as long as I have it after an S dinner, so I will make cheeseburger pie and eat to my hearts delight! I KNOW that is not what Serene and Pearl mean when they wrote the book, but for someone who struggles with portion control, this diet doesn't work. I just wish they said in the book, "You can have Cheeseburger Pie, but a serving size is 1/8 of the pan" or "Cut your THM brownies into 16 pieces, and enjoy 1 piece after an S meal." I didn't get fat because I knew what a portion size is....lets be honest. All I know is, I got down to my lowest since having children on WW, and I'm ready to do it again. I am going to try to stay with THM's way of eating, most of the time, because I really do love how it makes me feel when I am eating that way. I do feel like it makes me feel a little less pressure though, if I'm out and about and need to have something "off THM plan", I can just count the points and still be doing good. I'm not going to lie...I'm excited to eat a Subway sub with Baked Lays potato chips! ;-) Tomorrow night is my first meeting, so that is the weight I will have as my starting weight. I may post it on here....and I may not. It's so embarrassing quite honestly, so I'm not sure what I will do yet. I'm looking forward to having the accountability of weighing in each week, and having the support of friends at the meetings. I've been there on and off for 8 years now, so I pretty much know everyone! :-)
  Well that's about it. Maybe I will post tomorrow night after the meeting, but if not, I will try to post Friday after my first day back on WW. Skinny Jessica....I'm coming for you! ;-)

Day 62

I'm back! :-) I'm FINALLY feeling better...still a little congested, but feeling much better. We ended up staying an extra day in Ohio because of bad driving weather, so I wasn't able to start my Fuel Cycle till Wednesday. I am on day 4 now, and feeling pretty good. It is HARD, but I need something like this to get me back on the right track. Figures my time of month came yesterday haha so it makes it even harder. Once this is over, I will head back to the gym now that I am feeling better, and that should help my weight loss hopefully.
   I'm considering joining Weight Watchers this week, if I can figure out someone to watch my kids during meetings. I still am going to follow the THM plan hopefully 90% of the time, but all while counting points. I think it will help me to get used to portion control again, and I love the accountability of meetings. I have so much to lose, that I need all the help I can get at this point.
  Today is the first day of Fuel Pull foods in the Fuel Cycle. The first three days are all Deep S, which is like eggs, butter, coconut oil, veggies, chicken, etc. Basically I starve haha. I feel like there is nothing to eat. Last night I cheated a little and had a wrap with my eggs. I just needed something cause I was feeling nauseous. Today is always easier for me. Even though its food low in fat AND low in carbs, I feel like I have more options. Dinner will be rough though.....I may be eating only tomato soup when the rest of the family is having way better stuff! :-)
   Well, that is my update for now. I will weigh in on Wednesday and see what my weight is for the past two weeks since I didn't weigh this past Wednesday. Hopefully I see some sort of loss!