Day 74

Yeah, so this has been a horrible weekend. I haven't been this sick in a long time. Is it bad that I would rather have the stomach flu so at least I would lose weight? HAHA! I still feel horrible! Calorie counting has not happened even in the least bit, and neither has THM. It's been all I can do to pour a bowl of cereal for myself while still trying to take care of 4 kids, a house and homeschool, all while I feel like I'm dying. I think what makes it worse is that my baby has the same thing, so I have to deal with her being miserable, not sleeping at night, all while dealing with the same thing myself. I'm not complaining, really, I know it could be much worse. I'm just making an excuse for my bad eating and not caring! :-)

   I am going to Ohio to visit my SIL on Thursday until Monday. I will actually probably count calories when I am there, because my SIL is doing that, so it should be good motivation for me. I know Sunday afternoon will be a cheat meal though because it is the Super Bowl and we are making tons of food for us and our men.

 I have a couple plans for when I get home. Number one is, I'm going to commit to go off sugar for the month of February. Two, I'm going to do a THM Fuel Cycle with I get home. I always seem to lose when I do them, and it sets me on the the right track. It's not something you count calories for, but rather eat certain foods on certain days for 2 weeks. I will write about it when I do it. I will try to check in again before then, but I'm not sure it will happen with getting ready to leave and then being gone all weekend. Not that it matters, cause I'm pretty much the only one that is reading...besides you Alissa! :-) <3

Day 77

Sick as a dog today. I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Did not eat great and didn't count calories the second half of the day. I will try again tomorrow. It's so hard to care when you feel like crap and on top of that you are taking care of sick kids. 😩 headed to bed! Hopefully I will at least check in tomorrow!

Day 78

I'm going to warn you, this is going to be pretty short. My 6 month old baby has one of the worst coughs that you can imagine, is incredibly miserable and we both slept maybe a total of 2 hours last night. To make matters worse, I'm sick now with a nasty cough. Ugh. I feel like right when I get in a good groove, something happens haha. At least I got 2 days at the gym before I got sick. Hopefully I can just control my food, and it won't hurt me too much. Here is what today looked like.

THM waffles - 235 calories
Spark Drink - 45 calories
Popcorn - 65 calories
Egg salad on 1/2 lavish - 150 calories
Scoop of cauliflower/broccoli/cheese dish - 170 calories ( guessed )
SF PB cup - 80 calories
Chimi Changa with Lite Sour Cream - 375 calories
15 slices pepperoni - 120 calories
SF chocolate - 75 calories

Total - 1315 calories ( give or take a few that I guessed on )

Ok...baby is screaming already...ugh...over and out!

Day 79

Well today was "day one" and I feel like I did pretty well. I weighed this morning, so i will post my results next Wednesday after I have a week under my belt. We had a field trip to a museum today so I had to pack a lunch, which always proves to be more challenging for me. Plus they have a Bill Grays in the museum, which is the home of the most amazing cheeseburger joint EVER, so the smell of that is enough to make anyone cheat any diet! :-)
   So, if you are wondering what "plan" I am doing, I will tell you. I am trying to do a combination of Trim Healthy Mama, and counting calories. I love the Trim Healthy Mama plan, but I know I eat WAY too many calories when I am on that plan. Eating desserts with heavy cream, dinners filled with cream cheese, and coconut oil for dessert, was not working for me. I don't blame the plan actually, its just how I execute the plan. For instance, they would probably suggest for a nice S lunch to be something like, a bed of lettuce with salmon on top, sprinkle of cheese, and a healthy oil dressing, with a piece of skinny chocolate for dessert. What do I have? Oh I don't know like a mixture of cream cheese, chicken, cheddar cheese in a tortilla, dipped in sour cream, and then for dessert 1/4 cup of heavy cream mixed with peanut butter and sweetener. Delicious? Yes! BUT, probably like 1,000 calories. I was probably eating up to 3-4,000 calories a day, and I just feel like I can't wonder why I'm not losing weight. So, I have decided to try to follow THM as much as possible, all while counting calories. My goal is to stay on THM, but if I have to "cheat", it's ok as long as I count the calories. My goal is to just try to stay under 1,500 calories a day. I will start with that and see if I can lose, and if it doesn't work, I will have to reevaluate. Anyway, there is my long story! Here is what I ate today!

Breakfast - THM waffles - E  - 235 calories
Lunch - Egg salad on 1/2 Joseph's lavish and Zevia drink - S - 250 calories
Dessert - 1 Sugar Free PB cup - S - 80 calories
Snack - Quest PB Chocolate Bar - FP - 160 calories
Snack - Couple slices of rotisserie chicken - FP - 110 calories? ( not really sure )
Dinner - Turkey sub from Subway - Crossover - 410 calories
Dessert - 1 Sugar Free chocolate - S - 75 calories

Total Calories - 1,320

That was my day! I'm pretty happy how it turned out! Trying to not eat after 6 each night, so I'm STARVING right now, but I'm going to push through and try to go to bed. I have a 6 month old who is getting up 3 times a night, and a 9 year old who is sick and throwing up, so I'm thinking there will not be too much sleep tonight. :-/ I will be back tomorrow!

Here I am again....

Yes, I know. I'm a horrible blogger, and I am the first to admit it. So why am I even bothering starting yet ANOTHER blog? Well, I realized as I went through old posts on my old weight loss blogs, that I really enjoy going back and reading what worked, and what didn't, through all my journey's of losing weight. So honestly, even if I am the only one who ever reads this, I am going to do it for myself. I want the accountability, and I want to be able to look back someday and see my successes/failures.
  Here is the bottom line. I am going to be 30 in 80 days. Crazy!! Yes, I had a baby 6 months ago, but I am the heaviest I have ever been ( besides 9 months pregnant ) and I feel disgusting and gross. I can't tell you how many times I keep saying "Ok...today I'm getting serious" only to fail again. I'm the type of person that needs to have about 1-2 weeks of doing PERFECTLY, and then I get in a great groove and I feel like nothing can stop me...even a pan of brownies staring me in the face! My problem is actually getting to that point. Ugh, I feel like I can't get over that hump where I am super motivated. I joined the gym this week and started this blog, so I'm hoping between the two, I will somehow pull out motivation. I want to feel good on my 30th, but also, we are planning on taking a cruise for our 10 year anniversary this spring, and I'm telling you right now, there is no point even planning a trip if I look like this! Nothing fits me and I wouldn't take a picture of myself right now if you paid me! :-)
   Well there you have it. No promises for daily posts but I am going to try my best. I will be back tomorrow.!